Not Much Between Despair and Ecstasy

[quidditchgrrl]

I knew this was going to happen. Even the Energizer bunny's batteries eventually run down. This morning it felt like someone had punched me in the head. Dead batteries.

I think five months is the longest I've gone with insomnia before crashing & burning since my mom died. Go me?

Still, I did it for three years, once. Going that long without sleeping more than four hours at a time must be indicative of some sort of craziness.

Now, the past three years, I was pathologically ill, which meant that I slept a lot. It was strange. I felt strange.

No wonder I've been feeling more myself this year - the manic panic is back! But no, I can't help it. Insomnia and Mania have been my friends for many years. We have a familiar, dysfunctional relationship, but we always kiss and make up.

Now I have to relax and sleep for the rest of the weekend. Except Saturday. I did do a short ride today, to get my energy back up. Now it's laundry and vacuuming and napping and sinus medicine. And I Love the 80s 3D.

At least it happened now instead of in June, when my boss would be on vacation and I would have to drag myself out until I ended up in the ER.

I don't need medication, I'm not pathological. It's my normal pattern of being...no sleep. My poor, teeny-tiny niece - she's displaying the same tendencies at six months old. Well, at least she'll have someone to talk to about it.



In other news, there is no other news.

Comments

[annearchy.livejournal.com]

That little sleep really isn't good for you. I usually get 6 - 6.5 hrs on a week night (more on weekends) and even that supposedly isn't enough. It increases the level of cortisol in your blood stream, which supposedly increases your risk of diabetes and a lot of other things :(

[quidditchgrrl.livejournal.com]

Yep, I already have diabetes. But I've never been a person who can sleep for long periods of time, or at normal hours. I do best when I can get up at 7am, take naps at 10am and 5pm, then stay up until 1am.

Unfortunately, being a bum doesn't pay well. :P

It's been a life-long thing where I go through periods of worse-than-normal insomnia & high energy, then crash for a couple of days (or end up in the ER with acute dehydration/exhaustion). I just need to slow down and sleep in on the weekends. *nods*

[chickadilly.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I have a weird thing with sleep myself, it can suck.

[sunny1192.livejournal.com]

*Snuggles* That can't be easy (hell, I know it's not - I have the same problem. Frigging neuroses). I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

[lissannej.livejournal.com]

I suffer from bouts of insomnia, but they usually go away after a few months. You poor thing. Is there nothing anyone can do to help you? No alternative medicine you could try?

*hugs and sings you a lullaby*

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

No words of wisdom, just hugs and support until you get new batteries. :-*