Swirling down the drain

Just when I thought life might be looking up...(I know, oh god, here she goes again!)

Went to the optometrist this morning to check my contacts and have my eyes dilated.  This morning, I'd had a lot of trouble reading out of my right eye.  It seemed to have a film over it in some areas.

Why?  I have developed leakages in my ocular blood vessels, especially near the optic nerve in my right eye.  This explains the blurriness in the center of my visual field there (I could see the outer 1-2 letters on the chart okay, but not the middle 3-4).  Right now, though, I can see just fine.  Reabsorption, maybe?  >.O

My opthamalogist had called twice this year to see if I wanted to come in...no, I told him, I don't think it's necessary.  My diabetes is well under control, no problems.  *headdesk*

I'm waiting for a callback, once they have the optometrist's results, so the opthamalogist can schedule me for tests.

( I had an anxiety attack this morning, too )

Could someone please turn down the vacuum in this black hole?  It's really starting to suck.