Just shut the door so I can scream

[quidditchgrrl]

Yes, I live.  I'm upright for short amounts of time right now, getting through email and other things slowly but surely.  Eleven days in the pokey (God, literally, I look like a junkie) will do that to you.

And thank you, thank you, thank you for all your well-wishes and emails, means the world.

 

Large and small bowel blockages (yeah, that's what you think it is, which reminds me of the new South Park with Paris Hilton...) removed.  Slightly diseased gall bladder excised.  Large and small intestines stuck together in several places and twisted around each other separated (yum).  Approximately half of my left nostril ripped off when they removed my NG tube (double yum).

While I felt 100% better post-op, I've been in what can only be called excruciating pain since.  :(  The subject line is what I told the evil nurse my last night in the hospital.

Last night, I had what can nearest be called a nervous breakdown.  I put the bottle of pain killers away because they were calling me, mocking me.  Here we are.  So easy, virtually painless, right?  I'll never know how my mother managed three and a half years of this.  (And no, don't go all OH EM GEE someone call ElJay abuse, I'm not suicidal, but writing it down makes it more concrete and I really need to think about this some more and what it tells me.  Cause I'm like the least suicidal person ever.)

This morning I hit my breaking point.  I had to go to get my hand checked out (the night nurse my last night blew my vein big time and my hand is still huge and stiff).  I didn't know the first name of my surgeon.  The hysteria was a little alarming, but I managed not to sob through the doctor's visit.  But ya know what?  I felt better.  I feel better.  I'm getting better.  Life is expanding beyond the microcosm of my body.

Christmas cards are sketchy.  Gifts will be Target-issue (because we have a lot of gift cards from the wedding).  I will return to work the Monday after Christmas.  I am so lucky to have someone who, while not flashy or dramatic, keeps the house in order and looks after me better than anyone else would.

I will survive.  Nyah.  :P

Comments

[slytherinjenn.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you are starting to feel better!!! *hugs*

[abigail89.livejournal.com]

Welcome back to the land of the living. You poor w00blet!

Girl, you scared the heck out of a lot of people here.

Take it easy. Don't do too much. To hell with Christmas, cards and the like. Your family should be waiting on YOU hand and foot.

*hugs*

[chickadilly.livejournal.com]

(((DONNA)))

I'm so happy to see your name on my friends list!!!

Much love and hugs to you!!

*hugs and kisses*

[wildebeth.livejournal.com]

Geez, hon, you've been through fucking hell. I'm so sorry for you and I feel really stupid for worrying over my petty little problems in comparison. I hope you recover quickly, and send you all the positive vibes I can spare.

I'm glad you have your husband.

Love,
Beth

[lissannej.livejournal.com]

Donna, it is SO wonderful to hear from you! You haven't been far from my thoughts -- I'm sorry you're suffering so much. Rest easy and feel better soon, sweetie. My love to you and Andy :-)

PS -- your smutty_claus fic was the very first one posted, so you might want to take a look -- it'll make you smile!

*hugshugs*

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for posting! We've all been thinking of you. And yes, you'll live and get better and lay in bed and eat bon bons.

[angylinni.livejournal.com]

Hope you feel better soon!

[likebunnies.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon! *hugs*

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

ALIVE! YAY! :glomps...gently: Glad to see your voice again. XD

[trophime.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad to hear from you again. You're still feeling terrible, so all the best, and never mind about the Christmas cards. Love you.

[didi75.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about the pain you're going through. But I'm glad you're home and that you have someone wonderful in your life to help you through this. It was nice to see your name back on my f-list. :) Hope you recover quickly and start feeling much better very soon.

[1anonymous1.livejournal.com]

*loves*

[deirdre-riordan.livejournal.com]

You're back and alive and okay and yay! *showers you in chicken soup and flowers*

[hastyent.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I"m glad to see you posting again, darling. Take your time and get better. I miss you like crazy, but will await a healthy PBG.

If you need anything, give me a call, alright?

*hugs gingerly*

[reneec.livejournal.com]

Donna,

I'm so glad to see you post and know you are on the road to recovery. I'm sending lots of healing vibes to speed your recovery along. Squeezy hugs and warm wishes that you feel 100% again very soon.

[dejaspirit.livejournal.com]

Oh honey!!! *hugs gently*

Was so worried. Make sure you keep taking pain meds.

<3 your honey. We're lucky chicks.

[poconell.livejournal.com]

::Hugs::

I'm so glad to see you're back and getting better. Let's hope this whole thing can be left behind you for good.

Interstitial IV's really piss me off! Your nurse should have been checking that site at least once an hour.

[hughroe.livejournal.com]

Sweet lord darlin', just the thought of what you've gone through is enough to give a fellow the shivers. And here you are, writing about it like it's a park travelogue.

Get better soon I hope.

[badonkatonks.livejournal.com]

That's my spirited Donna! Please take care and don't push yourself...you mean too much to too many people.

Love and Kisses,
Jacquie

[roguebitch.livejournal.com]

SosososoSO glad you're back among the posting again. I'm sorry you're having all these hurdles right now and hope that there's smooth sailing ahead soon.

[seakays.livejournal.com]

D,

Tried to send you an email the other day based on the one the hubby left on your lj, and unfortunately it bounced back.

But anyways, glad to see you are feeling better. Under the weather myself lately. We should send emails once you feel better.

Hugs,
S