It must be hormones.

[quidditchgrrl]

Today was a bit of a roller-coaster, emotionally. I couldn't go to sleep last night after reading what is no doubt taradiane's last post, then seeing the Guardian link about the Catholic Church's disinformation policy had me pacing for more than an hour. megd did not respond to my ping until after I had gone to bed, I wibbled muchly, then decided that I would not be able to make her feel any better.

Honeybunch does not want to wait to have kids. We're getting married next October. I don't want kids right now (if ever). Meeble. Baby lust, which I experience for a couple of weeks at this time of year, utterly gone.

Late morning brought good smut, then a bit of melancholy at fearthainn's journal (happy birthday, hope it was enjoyable). Tamped down feelings of tremendous sadness, but a few escaped and I had to clean up before hitting the road.

After years of not particularly frequenting Barnes and Noble or any other coffee-shop-meets-library kind of store, I finally had the chance to fall victim to their marketing schtick. Looking over the YA novels for potential Christmas/birthday gifts, I got hooked into The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things and had to buy it before I left so I could finish it. It made me wibbly as well, a story about an overweight teenaged girl with a seemingly perfect family, who struggles with who she is vis who everyone wants her to be. Her 'Fat Girl Code of Conduct' and her inner dialogue had me blinking back tears. An overweight kid who can make it to adulthood with any sort of self-worth and chutzpah is worthy of a gold medal, I'm telling you.

But after that I cheered up for picking pumpkins with my sister, her twin nieces, my brother, sister-in-law and niece. Mal, the twins and I ended up getting free everything - we wandered in the back door, avoiding the $20+ entrance fee, then took red tickets for the hayride (hey, they left them in a shopping bag on a fencepost!) and brought back two pumpkins apiece without paying. Kids, especially three angelic-looking six year olds, are wonderful distractions. :-) Now I have pumpkins to carve for Halloween!

I hope you all are doing well tonight!